Hi!
This week, you'll have to excuse the personal nature of these ramblings. I'm hoping sending thoughts through this keyboard will help me make some kind sense of this, will help this loss shift from feeling impossible to the reality my heart wants to deny, but needs to accept.
Our family lost another light.
She was funny, talented, kind, smart, and full of just enough mischief to keep life interesting. She was a wife, daughter, sister, auntie, cousin and friend.
Growing up, our childhoods were incredibly intertwined. Of the 60+ first cousins in our family, there were three of us, all born within 6 months of each other, at most, we lived 20 minutes apart, we played together, went to school together, went through teenage drama together... all of it.
There were countless sleepovers filled with snacks of pickles stolen from the cold room, laughing until breath became a luxury, and whispered secrets about life and our future selves. We always managed to find just the right amount of trouble to get into. Enough to get a stern lecture every now and again, but never anything tooooooo bad.
And now, one of us is gone.
She will be missed so much by so many.
The world just feels a bit heavier now.
I know the heaviness will fade with time, the memories will one day bring smiles instead of tears, and I know she wouldn't want people to wear this weight for too long.
My heart breaks for her mom, her sisters, brothers-in law, nieces and nephews. They now have a Janet-sized hole in their lives that will feel impossible to fill.
The words to mend your shattered souls have yet to be invented,
So, I won't even try.
Instead, I'll just silently sit here,
And quietly help you cry.
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Beautiful Margy 💕
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